Lesson 26 - My attack thoughts are attacking my invulnerability
This lesson made me stop in my tracks. It’s natural and quite human to believe that everything external is responsible for our discomfort—whether it’s difficult situations, other people’s actions, or just bad luck. But as we move into Lesson 26, the recurring theme across all the lessons becomes undeniable: our thoughts are the real problem.
I sat with the statement: My attack thoughts are attacking my invulnerability. At first, it felt abstract, but as I let it sink in, I started seeing it everywhere. Every time I felt worried, frustrated, or defensive, I realised I was allowing those thoughts to chip away at my sense of safety and worth.
Thoughts in Disguise
One of the core ideas here is that every attack I perceive—whether from someone else or from life itself—actually starts with me. If I feel vulnerable, it’s because I’ve decided (usually subconsciously) to believe in the power of attack. It’s a choice to believe I can be hurt.
This lesson points out that if I can attack, then I must believe I can be attacked too. It’s a sobering thought because it shows how much power I give to fear. The problem isn’t “out there”; it’s in my own mind.
For example, when I disagree with someone, I often walk away replaying the exchange in my head. I convince myself I was wronged or that I didn’t handle it well. Those thoughts spiral into feelings of self-doubt or resentment, which only hurt me further. This cycle of attack and counter-attack doesn’t stop until I decide to stop feeding it.
Facing Fearful Scenarios
The practical exercise for this lesson was surprisingly effective. It asks you to think of situations that are causing you stress and then break them down. Here’s how I did it:
Name the situation: I’m worried about a disagreement I had with a friend.
Identify the fear: I’m afraid they’ll stop trusting me. I’m afraid I’ve ruined the friendship.
Label the attack thought: That thought is an attack upon myself.
When I did this, I realised how much weight I give to “what ifs.” These scenarios aren’t real; they’re just projections of fear. By naming them and labelling them as self-attacks, I could see how I was creating the anxiety in my mind. It’s not the disagreement that’s the problem—it’s how I’m thinking about it.
The Power of Invulnerability
This idea of invulnerability feels almost foreign. How can I not be vulnerable when life is so unpredictable? But the lesson reframes it. True invulnerability isn’t about controlling the world or avoiding challenges; it’s about recognising that nothing outside of me can truly harm who I am.
I am not my fears, my mistakes, or my perceived failures. The real me—the self that’s connected to something greater—is untouchable. That’s what invulnerability means.
Letting Go
The hardest part of this lesson is surrendering. It’s easy to hold on to my fears because they feel like protection. But the truth is, they only isolate me further. By practising this lesson, I’m learning to loosen my grip and trust that I don’t have to defend myself from an imaginary attack.
Every time I catch myself feeling vulnerable, I remind myself: That thought is an attack upon myself. It’s not about guilt or self-blame; it’s about taking responsibility for what I choose to focus on. And when I focus on peace instead of attack, I feel lighter, freer, and much closer to invulnerability.
Closing Thoughts
Lesson 26 has taught me that the battle is always internal. My attack thoughts don’t just create conflict with others; they create a false sense of vulnerability within me. Each time I replay a disagreement, worry about a future scenario, or dwell on feelings of inadequacy, I’m reinforcing an illusion that I’m separate, alone, and capable of being harmed.
Reflecting on this, I come back to the truth: “I am as God created me,” and if my reality is spirit, I must be one with everything and everyone. Therefore, there is literally nothing and no one ‘out there’ who could hurt me.”
This doesn’t mean the world stops challenging me. It means I need to remember to stop attacking myself with my thoughts. Every time I return to this truth, I feel a little lighter, a little closer to peace, and more aligned with who I really am.
I’m not perfect at this yet—it’s an ongoing practice. But just knowing that I hold the key to my invulnerability is powerful.
If you’re working through this lesson: be patient with yourself. Recognising your attack thoughts isn’t always fun, but it’s worth it. Each step forward is a step closer to peace.
